Beaucoup Bonjour !

Hello! I am in a very good mood right now (: i applied at this clothing store that i like about a week ago, and the lady there was very nice! so, i went back in today and asked about it, and she recognized me! which is such a good sign. also, she said that she's setting up interviews next week so hopefully i get a call...!



anywho, yesterday we made our speeches for class officers. i ran for secretary. and i lost. but whatever. and i've been studying like CRAZY for finals... UGH. today i'm treating myself to a break from running, studying, and giving myself some quality time with my computer ! haha.
anywho, tomorrow is stephanie's birthday ! i'm so excited. i loveee birthdays :D saturday, melissa, becca, and kenzy are going to a concert (and melissa keeps basically rubbing it in my face that she's going and i'm not because i REALLY wanted to go but i wasn't 'allowed' to go with them because they're going with girlscouts.. haha whateverr.) so i'm taking stephanie to the mall and then we're getting some chinese food (there's nothing like mall food quart chinese food) and then getting some free ice cream at friendly's. some good hayley-stephanie quality time might bring us closer from the farawayness we've gotten.
kenzy and spencer are still so cute. AH. yesterday was their two month (:
becca and wily have something going on... i read a note he wrote to her in english and it was SO FREAKING CUTE. ahh, i want a boy SO bad. i think i like this kid from the tennis team, because whenever we're together, its so cute (: like one day we sat together on the late bus.. ahh! but we have NO classes together, and now that tennis is over... ): but he lives in my neighborhood and i know where he works so we're BOUND to run into eachother... (; i just want his number really bad so i could talk to him more... or if he had a facebook/AIM. UGH. seriously.
but school is ending soon... which is good and bad. i'm going to miss everyone that i'm going to lose most contact with, but i'm excited for the relaxation and warm weather (:
AH. i'm just rambling on now. and its probably getting boring for you, haha.

i'm sorry this post has been boring and ugly to look at. once i have more energy from not studying, i'll be able to make prettier posts ahha (:

AH!

Ohkay. I'm deeply deeply sorry that i havent been on in FOREVER! but finals are coming up and i've been studying like a MAD WOMAN. so, just bear with me, here (: i wish i had time to write more and have you read a more meaningful post, but i'm on a tight schedule and i'm giving myself only a half hour on the internet because i've already studied for 2 hours! anyway, i'd like to thank Mandy from My Paper Heart for the lovely award (: I'd like to pass it on to my best friends...
this wheel's on fire and Morena from Too Haute to Handle


enjoy :D

I am not perfect. I expect too much from people and they end up disappointing me. I disappoint people because I don't listen well. I'm not good at confrontations but I try my hardest. I know when I'm wrong and I try to apologize for it. I respect apologies. I enjoy complements and I give out my complements genuinely. I respect people that are nice and pleasant. If you're mean to me or my friends or family, you're not worth my time. I believe in second chances, but you're not going to get one hundred of them. I go to church and I'm proud of it. Movies and books make me cry easily. I hate being fake happy, but sometimes I have to be. I try to be independent, but it's really hard sometimes. I try really hard to try hard in school, but sometimes I'm really lazy. I love being organized and making lists. I'm a control freak. Sometimes I come off selfish and conceited, but that's not who I really am. I have serious trust issues. The people I should trust I can't, and I trust people I know I shouldn't. I try really hard to be a really good person. I have a problem with talking about people to people that aren't on my side. I like to know what people are thinking and feeling. I hate not being able to read people. I blow up sometimes really easily. I've gotten into the habit of swearing too much. I get nervous easily when I'm talking to people. I'm constantly afraid of rejection, but I try to do things anyway. I'm nervous about applying to jobs because I'm afraid i won't get one. I'm afraid to run for a class office because I know that no one will vote for me. I wish I had more guy friends. I eat too much. I'm just beginning to have the will power to exercise daily. I hate talking on the telephone and my mom gets annoyed by it. Most days I think I'm pretty, but others I'm so self-conscious it's ridiculous. I swear I have undiagnosed OCD. I hate using God's name in vain and I cringe every time someone does it. I try to be easygoing, but I get stressed easily. I'm a procrastinator. I get nervous talking to teachers. I strive to be a perfect student. I'm an insanely jealous person. When I fall for someone, I fall for them hard, and then when they reject me, it takes me forever to get over it. I have so many people I wish I could be. But I am me. I am Hayley, and I am not perfect. But I am okay with that.

Cinco de Mayo

i love spanish colors and patterns. they're so bright and happy and fun, and just make me wanna dance (:

Hello Again!

Well, I haven't written in a while! I've been so busy, but good busy! And happy...good happy! So, some of the things that have been on my mind...

The tennis courts have been a place of drama lately. Good and bad.
Today is Kenzy and Spencer's one month anniversary. I would tell you the whole story about how their union started all sorts of drama, with him changing their relationship status on facebook before Kenzy got a chance to tell any of her friends, or how our small school found out that a freshman is going out with a junior, but none of that matters anymore, because Kenzy and I had a nice little chat and our school got over the drama and moved on to someone else.
Spencer and Melissa are very good friends. I felt a but left out, though, because I wasn't aquainticed with Spencer at all, and I felt like i should be. Friday, we had a half day and like half of my class went to Hershey for a field trip. We had a tennis match, so Kenzy wasn't there, who Spencer always hangs out with and Tommy and Curt weren't there, who I usually hang out with. When I was sitting in the grass, after Spencer finished his match, he came over and sat by me. We talked about a lot of things, and I think we really became closer. He talked about Kenzy like she was the best thing ever, which is how he should. I actually feel more comfortable around Spencer now, and I really think thats important. Spencer and Kenzy (Spenzy!) are perfect for eachother, and I think that they'll be together for a very long time.
Katie, who is my friend, kindof... i don't even want to talk about. Honestly, she is just getting on my nerves like crazy. All i have to say is that i think she's just an insanely jealous person, and whatever i do that i do without her, she gets pissed, and I just don't even want to deal with her.

I've been exercising lately, i really wanna get toned for Philadelphia. I'm going with national junior honor society a week from friday and we're staying at a hotel with an indoor water park... and i need to get rid of my winter fat.. ew. Although, i havent been doing taebo... haha, my mom just found her old tapes, and i thought they were too good to not share... they're soo goofy. haha.


Okay, right now i really want to write but my mom and sister are fighting like crazy and i can't concentrate. so, i'll talk to you later! have a wonderful sunday and a fun week (:
☮H