so much stuff has happened. i wish i could say it all, but its just too much. i don't understand why i've been so moody; i'm not stressed at all. i don't like how much i have been crying. i don't mean to, but i can't help it. i need a vacation, but the funny thing is that i just got back from one. i need to find time to write here more because it made me happy. i don't know why i stopped.