Today our school was told that one of our teacher's died. He was my fifth and sixth grade teacher, and the varsity football coach. When I first heard, I was in shock, basically yelling "WHAT?" The whole day was rather sad. It was not until I got home that it actually sank in. Even though I hadn't seen or talked to him in a few years, he had an impact on my life, since my 5th and 6th grade years were so much about learning about the world around me. It's just weird to think that he's gone; that I'll never see him again. I guess I just don't really realize sometimes. I really don't even know what I'm saying, I just need to say something.
I feel as if I should write about my year, about how great/good/okay/bad/sad/happy/exciting/boring it was, but I really, truly, honestly don't know what to say.
Then I thought, maybe I should write about all I want to do in 2010, all my aspirations and resolutions, but to be honest, I don't have a plan. I find it hilarious, actually. For all of the organizing I do, for all the sticky notes hanging around my room reminding me of stuff, and the multiple calendars and planners I have, I don't really have a plan for my future. I have a great plan for the present, but not so much for a month from now, or even a week from now. I don't like making new year's resolutions, because I don't complete them, anyway. I can give myself a year to be like, "Hey, I want to lose 10 pounds," or, "Maybe this year I'll keep my room cleaner" because I've accepted the fact that that's not going to happen. I'm a procrastinator. I've accepted this fact. So rather than try to remember every single little thing that happened in the year of 2009, I think of everything that's happened in my life. Meeting my friends, the best summers of my life, Christmases and ski weekends. I have a list of goals I want to accomplish before I die, but I have a lot of time (hopefully) to do that. So right now: no, I don't have any New Year's Resolutions, but yes, I have a promise with myself to make this year worth it so much that on December 31, 2010 I can think of my life and remember something from this year that changed my life.